kahluagal | (no subject)

I have no idea why I'm in this relationship. It's the day before he returns home after taking care of his dad's house, and he should be excited, but by all means, let's have a fight.

I anticipate he'll break up with me soon and honestly, I get off the phone and wonder why I bother. This isn't a relationship - he doesn't know how to communicate and doesn't care if he hurts me.

'I need you to be less morbid right now' when I told him I was feeling like I was getting into another depression.

I told him how fragile I was mentally and he blew it off. I have to see why I attract these abusive people and run from them.

I am going to back away slowly - less time, eventually ghost him because he's not emotionally able to be in a relationship with me.