kahluagal | Entries tagged with newchapter

the past couple of days have been a cognitive hell:

Dealt with problems with credit card spending limit, and making some payments to get it 'in the green' because upcoming travel includes having them use my credit for incidental charges. Tried to get larger credit line, but because I've only been paying the limit I'm over my credit limit so was declined; made big payments leaving me with next to nothing in my savings until I get paid; hoping mother in law can help. The incidental cost is $40 (?!) and I have some in my savings that I can point to if the credit doesn't go in in time although hotels don't like it when you use your debit card.
Dealt with background check, where I had to send documentation for 2 companies who had HR 3rd companies who have different W2s,
Do usual 'proof of employment' thing via I9
Do usual unemployment form online; trying to ensure I have supporting activities in there. The guy at the Dept. of Labor says you can get audited and you have to pay back money, so I'm even going to spend the next few weeks ensuring I have the right activities in there, or maybe try to finish that for tomorrow. I have to add 6 months of 'activities'; I've been adding the companies, but not the 'are you doing 3 different kinds of activities.
Do onboarding with new company online - uploading photo etc. (great, looking old right from the start).
Applied for student loan readjustment for the amount. Panicked over this - put it in deferment but not sure if that will start up again before I get the readjustment.
Dealt with handyman putting glaze over tub
Started looking over health insurance docs; ironic is this will be the best paying job I'll have ever had, and I STILL have to pay for mine out of pocket - not sure if i do the $30 a month, $100 a month or $200 a month so fun, looking over those.
Looked into the citizenship application process, becoming familiar with the process and gathering docs. Just in case I wasn't feeling overwhelmed enough.
Got readying for travel to Chicago and training from Sunday to Wednesday. They might have me start on a client project right away, so immediately traveling. I really hope this feels familiar, as I was doing that for a few years around 2011 and got used to it, and am hoping the better income and time away can help me figure out what to do with this relationship. Not sure what to think of the company - if I'm in over my head skills wise.

In absolute panic the most about the credit card incidental charge and that things won't clear in time. I should probably look up back up people in Chicago to stay with just in case :( ;( :(. My biggest fear is somehow I have to reveal to the HR person at work that there was some snafu with my credit card; they have a big line in the welcome PDF saying 'make sure you have a credit card for incidentals!'. Most hotels only charge you a $1 and pay you back - this place charges $40 a night, so I hope I have the $200 in my account to make it work.

I don't have enough money to pay for a suitcase just in case I have to check it - mine is just a little too big it, so I usually check it. I have a laptop bag I'm shoving all my clothes in, but it will be really, really tight. I wish I had friends here I could ask to borrow this from. I'm terrified of even spending $40 to get a cheap one from Target. Why is adult life and all of these forms so complicated? I feel broken and exhausted in this new chapter of life. I should be thrilled, but I'm more worried than anything. Coupled with me trying to get an autism diagnosis, I feel more tested and alone and terrified than anything else