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Jul. 10th, 2018 02:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kahluagali can't even get the people I worked with to write a letter of recommendation. I'm speaking of the ones most recently - like less than a month agao. I've asked for recommendations before, and most time it gets ignored, that request. It's humiliating - all the 'you're so great to work with, going to miss you', but then they won't say it publicly, so I don't know what the fuck. I send one of the senior leadership a LinkedIn request and he still hasn't accepted.
The one place that replied back to me has a horrendous Glassdoor review and underpaid what I was making by $40,000 so it's a step backwards, it's all remote and not really what I know how to do, so I'm pretty depressed. Another call is for a better place, but I've seen the interview process and all I see is 'out of my league' and they don't have a job posted anyway.
The thought of having to apply to unemployment and go through that process is dreadful. The last time I did it when I had moved to NYC was humiliating. Had a government worker look over every piece of documentation and a lot of 'huh, you should be employed by now... clearly you're not hunting hard enough so it must be you'... I practically came out of there with tears every interview. I turned into this passive thing that shrivels in the face of confrontation, but if I talk and say how I feel it's 'lose your job, oh, won't qualify for unemployment then' or whatever else. Power destroys me, but then again I'm pretty destroyed lately so what else is new.
The one place that replied back to me has a horrendous Glassdoor review and underpaid what I was making by $40,000 so it's a step backwards, it's all remote and not really what I know how to do, so I'm pretty depressed. Another call is for a better place, but I've seen the interview process and all I see is 'out of my league' and they don't have a job posted anyway.
The thought of having to apply to unemployment and go through that process is dreadful. The last time I did it when I had moved to NYC was humiliating. Had a government worker look over every piece of documentation and a lot of 'huh, you should be employed by now... clearly you're not hunting hard enough so it must be you'... I practically came out of there with tears every interview. I turned into this passive thing that shrivels in the face of confrontation, but if I talk and say how I feel it's 'lose your job, oh, won't qualify for unemployment then' or whatever else. Power destroys me, but then again I'm pretty destroyed lately so what else is new.
