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[kahluagal]

I think I realized I'm with A. because he reminds me of a lot of my previous boyfriends:

• the directness of B, the Web developer who was sarcastic to me and abusive
• the creativity of R, writing, the mixed experience of him
• J, most noticeably same ethnic background
• the eventual lack of attraction with P, and many of the same acts in bed (guys with a fear of actual intimate acts - at least 3 of them).

Am I trying to 'fix' what didn't work in those relationships with this one? Or am I just lonely in parts, or is he?

I dread therapy which will feel like a waste of time and an expensive one at that.

I just need to find a new apartment and tackle the rest of my list and leave this guy behind