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the only people who will have jobs in the future are assertive people who are extroverts. As an introvert with social anxiety I was basically doomed from birth. I think of all the 'friends' who have tried to help me find jobs, and they were the extroverted people (well, 2 of them) who had perfect little parents and perfect little lives. Me, I'm preparing for homelessness on top of my job search because money runs out. Not being fatalistic, but rather realistic.

It would be nice to see a doctor, but I've lost my health insurance after 8 months because I was laid off. I cannot survive in America any longer. I'm slowly going through my things to get rid of them, likely to live in my sister's basement. This is not negative thinking but rather the realism that this has been a giant failure on all these levels.