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So I have less than a month if I want to find a new apartment.  My lease comes up, haven't heard if he's going to jack up the rent.

I don't want another year of this.

None of the people in my life who are in a position to help are helping or care enough about me to help.  I knew someone who's a realtor who I asked for help, and he never did.  I hope the next widow he runs into doesn't have to deal with him.  I plan - after finding a new place - to send him a note and unfriend him.

I plan on leaving a note to my neighbors, with their partying and pot smoking and crack girlfriends asking me for money.  I will note in the letter that I've let the landlord know that's why I'm leaving.  I'm done being polite.

I also have a note ready to go after I leave this toxic workplace to the head of one of the departments about the behavior of some of the employees who report up to her.  Is it tacky to do it on the way out, when people can't defend themselves? Maybe.  But I've had people lie about my abilities on performance reviews.  I want to be done being polite.

I'm tired of other people.  I'm fine with me.  It's other people who get in the way, most of the time.

Meanwhile my boyfriend is in Alaska and is basically incommunicato for a week.  Has told me he doesn't talk to anyone during his birthday week on his trip.  A whole lot of stuff coming out now that has me backing away even more.  It feels great to date and not be emotionally connected.  I have no doubt when he returns he'll break up, or at a certain point after him telling me to 'grow up' or whatever, I'll just walk way and break up, something I don't do but now feel comfortable doing.  I don't need him.  I'm happy to be alone.  I don't need any man to complete me. I never will.

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So I have less than a month if I want to find a new apartment.  My lease comes up, haven't heard if he's going to jack up the rent.

I don't want another year of this.

None of the people in my life who are in a position to help are helping or care enough about me to help.  I knew someone who's a realtor who I asked for help, and he never did.  I hope the next widow he runs into doesn't have to deal with him.  I plan - after finding a new place - to send him a note and unfriend him.

I plan on leaving a note to my neighbors, with their partying and pot smoking and crack girlfriends asking me for money.  I will note in the letter that I've let the landlord know that's why I'm leaving.  I'm done being polite.

I also have a note ready to go after I leave this toxic workplace to the head of one of the departments about the behavior of some of the employees who report up to her.  Is it tacky to do it on the way out, when people can't defend themselves? Maybe.  But I've had people lie about my abilities on performance reviews.  I want to be done being polite.

I'm tired of other people.  I'm fine with me.  It's other people who get in the way, most of the time.

The fascinating help offered by my sister is:
"I guess you need to decide what level of sketchyness you're willing to accept."
 

Wow, that's helpful - I was not thinking that way before </vomit>

Meanwhile my boyfriend is in Alaska and is basically incommunicato for a week.  Has told me he doesn't talk to anyone during his birthday week on his trip.  A whole lot of stuff coming out now that has me backing away even more.  It feels great to date and not be emotionally connected.  I have no doubt when he returns he'll break up, or at a certain point after him telling me to 'grow up' or whatever, I'll just walk way and break up, something I don't do but now feel comfortable doing.  I don't need him.  I'm happy to be alone.  I don't need any man to complete me. I never will.