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Mar. 16th, 2021 09:34 pmI am so enthralled by the power I know I have to walk away from this relationship - and he doesn't even know it.
Just too many red flags - after wonderful weekends, out of the blue it will be him being snippy and being rude, and me with no idea what I have done to provoke him. I actively got off the phone with him tonight because I just didn't want any more time with him.
He regularly misreads what I want, will take initiative to set up calls or 'I asked this person to do this for you...' just completely unable to respect me. I told him something he was doing wasn't respecting my agency and his response was sarcasm. He has a friend who works at a big tech firm; said he would introduce us. I said, 'give it a couple of weeks'. he goes ahead and does it anyway... "oh I thought you were being polite".
I see clearly why he's been single. Damaged fruits should be left on the jungle floor.
I have not let him forget that he told me that I should 'grow up' about something. I probably shouldn't hold onto that, but it was a gross moment.
I take this entire thing as a way to safely practice my communication and boundary setting - kind of like going on a job interview for a job you're not passionate about but it's good to get the practice in.
He's not a rebound exactly, but I had a sense it wouldn't work out. And this is fine! I will walk away after about 6 months and I won't miss him because I know I can do better. In 6 months he also hasn't once said anything remotely expressing love. So fuck him.
He inherited a good amount of money and just sold his dad's house. He will bring these things up. I wonder if he knows how dysfunctional he is and this is a 'please stick around' plea. Does he expect it to work?
I definitely want someone to take care of me - that much is for sure. Where can I find the successful woman to date? My plan will be to find a great woman to be with. Even if she's not perfect, it will be a transition away. I don't need male energy right now. I will find a therapist and a girlfriend. I will be calm in breaking up with him and who cares how he reacts. I will be direct and unemotional - I'm not getting my emotional needs met and we have communication challenges so it's best to split is the message.
I don't care if he's upset. I'm sure he will hurl insults and reveal who he is and my response will be clear - "I'm sorry you feel that way". And block him, completely. I will need to get a tattoo to remind me to stay focused on my goals and stop wasting weekends with him.
I deleted the last voicemail Andy sent me. I will do the same for all the other people in my life - simply erase them. They were never there to begin with. It will be an amazing life without them
Just too many red flags - after wonderful weekends, out of the blue it will be him being snippy and being rude, and me with no idea what I have done to provoke him. I actively got off the phone with him tonight because I just didn't want any more time with him.
He regularly misreads what I want, will take initiative to set up calls or 'I asked this person to do this for you...' just completely unable to respect me. I told him something he was doing wasn't respecting my agency and his response was sarcasm. He has a friend who works at a big tech firm; said he would introduce us. I said, 'give it a couple of weeks'. he goes ahead and does it anyway... "oh I thought you were being polite".
I see clearly why he's been single. Damaged fruits should be left on the jungle floor.
I have not let him forget that he told me that I should 'grow up' about something. I probably shouldn't hold onto that, but it was a gross moment.
I take this entire thing as a way to safely practice my communication and boundary setting - kind of like going on a job interview for a job you're not passionate about but it's good to get the practice in.
He's not a rebound exactly, but I had a sense it wouldn't work out. And this is fine! I will walk away after about 6 months and I won't miss him because I know I can do better. In 6 months he also hasn't once said anything remotely expressing love. So fuck him.
He inherited a good amount of money and just sold his dad's house. He will bring these things up. I wonder if he knows how dysfunctional he is and this is a 'please stick around' plea. Does he expect it to work?
I definitely want someone to take care of me - that much is for sure. Where can I find the successful woman to date? My plan will be to find a great woman to be with. Even if she's not perfect, it will be a transition away. I don't need male energy right now. I will find a therapist and a girlfriend. I will be calm in breaking up with him and who cares how he reacts. I will be direct and unemotional - I'm not getting my emotional needs met and we have communication challenges so it's best to split is the message.
I don't care if he's upset. I'm sure he will hurl insults and reveal who he is and my response will be clear - "I'm sorry you feel that way". And block him, completely. I will need to get a tattoo to remind me to stay focused on my goals and stop wasting weekends with him.
I deleted the last voicemail Andy sent me. I will do the same for all the other people in my life - simply erase them. They were never there to begin with. It will be an amazing life without them
