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Jun. 14th, 2020 03:27 pmI managed to unlock Andy's phone and now I see all the dating apps he was using, exchanging messages with at least 4 women just months before he died. It includes a lot of 'I live alone' and 'It's been a long time since I felt that way' to other women. I feel so betrayed and want to set fire to the world.
The only thing I want to do is find a partner who is rich so he'll take care of me. Really, the only thing that matters. In the meantime, looking for work, seeing about moving overseas and treating myself to the luxury - the perfumes, the skin care, all the things I was denied living with a loser who didn't work because he was an 'ARTISTE'. it's obvious now he was using me because I provided a roof over his head and he just wanted some goth strumpet to fuck... I was just a mommy taking care of him.
He was never a partner. I see that now.
I wasted six years on a manipulative con man. All the good memories are destroyed now. The only thing I want is fame, money and someone who will take care of me - and if I don't have that last one, the other two will keep me well satisfied. How will I sleep at night? On a bed made of money.
The only thing I want to do is find a partner who is rich so he'll take care of me. Really, the only thing that matters. In the meantime, looking for work, seeing about moving overseas and treating myself to the luxury - the perfumes, the skin care, all the things I was denied living with a loser who didn't work because he was an 'ARTISTE'. it's obvious now he was using me because I provided a roof over his head and he just wanted some goth strumpet to fuck... I was just a mommy taking care of him.
He was never a partner. I see that now.
I wasted six years on a manipulative con man. All the good memories are destroyed now. The only thing I want is fame, money and someone who will take care of me - and if I don't have that last one, the other two will keep me well satisfied. How will I sleep at night? On a bed made of money.
